Good Weekend/Bad Day

I haven't consumed so much alcohol in a long time. We went out again last night, smaller group this time, just me, Teetz, Chaz and Kayleen. It was a good time though and there are more pictures, but they're on facebook so go look there. Had some dinner at Brewsky's, the pork chops were delicious! Hung out at Sandy's, duh, and then Duffy's. Chaz and I were going to get a Shark Water fishbowl because that's about all we could afford between the two of us, since the end of the evening was near and, well, we all drank a lot and spent a lot of money. Dave was working that night so I asked for that one and he's like, "Shark Water is for the designated driver, neither of you are driving are you?" and we were both like, no...so he gave us a Red Snapper fishbowl instead. I love Dave. That's why I love Duffy's so. He takes care of is there, just like Cole takes care of us at Sandy's. We hit Lazari's too, which is always good, there were no fights like the last time we were there and no bitches. Last time we went for pizza, some girls had been in the bathroom together and after they got out Kayleen went in and was in there like two seconds before some dumb bitch started banging on the door telling her to get out. The chick thought she was in there with someone and called her a bunch of names and shit, so when Kayleen came back to the table and told me this I of course got pissed, because that's what happens when I drink whiskey and get angry. I just remember Drake grabbing my shoulders so I couldn't get up and Kayleen actually sat down on my lap so I also could not get up. I probably would've gotten in a fight that night myself, but I take great offense when people talk shit to my friends. And whiskey makes me fight bitches.

Everything was pretty much the usual last night, drank a lot, had some pizza, acted like idiots on the way back to the car, same old same old. Chaz peed on a building, Teetz and I fell in the grass, and he also tried to pull me into the fountain by Anderson but I would have none of that. We did not have nearly the debauchery we did the night before, this was a little more calm, and it was fun.

Today though, I just have this sudden like, I don't know, I'm just sad again. Not like, crying my eyes out I am so depressed sadness, but just a, "Wow...I can have that much fun without him...But I don't want to....But I have to...." It's ridiculous, this big tug-of-war is going on inside my head and sometimes it just drives me nutso.

I think people should say the things they mean, and mean the things they say. When you don't, that's what makes you untrustworthy.

My apartment is very cool and I am enjoying it immensely. However, it is hardly even warm outside, but I know if I turn the air off it'll be an oven in about five seconds.

I have a work meeting tonight, oh joy. The Depot is not as bad now that I am back on days again, some of the policies are just annoying.

Yesterday afternoon Amy and I went to the Iron Brush and talked to them about her tattoo, and I found a really awesome design I want to put around the letters of mine. It's getting a little more expensive but it'll be worth it, and the guys remember me now so I know it'll be cool when I actually go get it done. I think I want Nate to do it, I talked to him the most besides Kevin, who does the piercings. I actually saw Nate last night at Duffy's when Chaz and I went out for a smoke. It was random.

I enjoy smoking far too much. I am a hypocrite and I DON'T CARE. I couldn't smoke regularly though. I don't know why.

I did a bigtime purge of my friends list on Facebook. I removed a ton of people, at least 40, probably a few more. It's not a popularity contest and some of the people who have added me I'm like, we aren't friends, why are you bothering? Pretty much the people who are on my list now are on there becuase I want them to be, and because I actually am FRIENDS with them. Duh.

My stomach hurts. Not from the alcohol or anything, it's one of those emotional stomach aches, ugh. They're the worst because no medicine in the world makes those go away. I might just go watch some television and get lost in the make believe world of Buffy for a while, see if that helps.